checkin' in; alterego. one post please. (;
a lil post before i go
study again.
1.23 pm.
okay, so now, my mums sleepin, and so is my dad, my brothers in his room, and my sisters out to visit her bf once again.
and im here (:
set alarm fo 8.45 this morning,
snoozed till 9. 20.
yes, thats me (:
brushed teeth, changed, blebleblabla.
out of room at around 10.
mostly cause i kept on rollin over and over my bed,
till i fell off.
:D
haaahaaa, okay, that last part isnt true (;
but i did, ever fell off my bed in the middle of the late once, cause of rolling and rolling, like, 4 years ago maybe? LOL
i was just rolling rolling, didnt know i reached the edge edi (queen sized bed), and continued rolling off my bed. HAHA.
i was kinda shocked when i hit the floor.
HAHA.
like, "huh?/"
:D
laugh as much as you wish
like i care,
much.
okay okay, so i really have to make sure i go study.
i only studied a bit of history justnow from 11-12 smthg, cause lunchtime.
i had lemon curb again fo breakfast, around 10.30 :D
the results were very satisfiying, i studied quite effectively (:
unlike the past four days!
you know, past FOUR DAYS, i didnt studied at all.
like sht.
i kept on gettin distracted, cause, i think the first day, i was studyin studying in my room, till i heard sound from the sitting, at first i though what?
cause last week, my grandma was like shouting shouting, cause a biawak/monitor lizard went to the kitchen, when she was having tea. It got very close to her, around her legs.
at first i dont know what sound, thought my brother was watching movie in his room, then....
opps, sorry, no time fo recapping last weeks incident.
mayb some other time (:
anyways, GO BACK.
... so i went out, and found my sister watchin OneTreeHill, cause shes havin holiday now, just fyi, till AUGUST!
grr, unfair.
T________T
*tears*
and i stayed to watch.
aa, but in truth, i watched that season bfore, season 4, only waitin fo her to go buy season 5 :p
but, my memory's always very the bad, i forgot most of the good parts.
so i stayed to watch with her till 5.
oh, p.s. , that was on the dumpling festival.
at 5 we went to beach...
nice,
lumut beach's the best (;
had it almost all to ourselves, just few people here and few people there.
haahaa. what? i dont enjoy crowded places quite so much.
yes, im quite greedy indeed.
i tend to be in a bad mood when in a too crowded place,
not much of a people person really,
one reason why i grew up kepting my mouth shut around people.
and kept on talk to my dogs and cats, and tortoise, fishy, the KOIS.
yes, you have the right to call me ultra-weird (:
T________________T
sht, i miss the kois a lot.
we dont have any now, my mum got fed up with all the bad luck.
love to explain properly, but no time, sors (:
in fact, now we only have two species of pets.
the common, dogs and cats.
but i love them all the same.
hmm, gave me an idea, to blog bout all the types of animals we had as pets (:
yess, i want,
but, maybe during holidays ):
anyways, moving on again...
that was the first time we went to swim in the beach in maybe, about a year?
thats really bad,
fo people living right next to the beach.
pffff, no one wants to take me baahh.
and once when i asked my mum if it would be okay to go by myself with the dogs only,
she said okay,
we have three dogs.
but doubt she actually meant it, sure if i were to ask again, shell start blebleblabla-ing.
so actually fo this year, i planning to go every friday morning,
just go exersice and relax, with the dogs... my fat Spot needs to lose the fats. HAHA <3
-Morning, cause, to prevent ppl complaining about bringing the dogs.
like sht, okay.
the dogs hardly show any interest in you, and ppl still find it necessary to complain in the newspapers and make it into a big fuss/
plus, all those who go in the morning, are usually friendly middle aged women. one's my mums friend (:
but then, sighs, this year, friday classes.
so results?
my stamina sucks.
and my Spots still fat.
and Teddy n Sammy are super hyper all the time.
hmmmmmmmmmmm, im still struggling fo a balance life style.
startin all from balance diet, (ee, i started eatin veggies this year ):
to balance ... aa, what? system? mind.
yes, my mum once brought me to some expert at bandar, where they take a picture of your eyes, and tell you about stuffs like, "stress" or "always nervous" or... "too much radiation from electronic" etcetc/
basically discussing how youre living.
my where quite, exactly, nothing i didnt already know.
She asked me whether im always nervous.
i was kept my mouth shut.
She said.. aa, what aa? i forgot. lol. sors.
but i did rmmber she sayin i was ''imbalanced"
-__________-
ha,
ha
ha
my family always bully me about that. ><"
then shell give give vitamins,
which none of us are even eating now...
haha,
i even got the strawberrys vitamin fo digestion.
cause my mum told her that i dont poop everyday....
seriously.
oh, crap.
what was i typing? O.0
oookayy,
and my mum justnow go and say say alrdy i was on fo an hour.
aa, fine fine fine.
so, i shall be off to study.
im wayyy behind.
sighs.
so happy tomoro holiday.
i shall wake early tomoro.
so, fo now,
byes.
p.s. , fo all my school friends who dont really know the whole me, i mean, theres the classmates and schoolmates who sees me as just this quite good girl, and hack sherli even called me a geek or nerd that day... hmmm, she said "of course, she's a geek, or nerd... whatever"
that made me wonder if shes been listenin to Izan. HAHAHA.
Says Izan, "Being a nerd is cool"
*grins*
rightt.
i didnt really care, cause she didnt mean it much as an insult i could see, and besides, i've improved my patience a lot *winks to bren*
and fo my close friends,
well, lets just say they have a tiny hint, fo how i actually am,
so, they see me as,
nader: weird?
brenda: short tempered?
susan: in love with a particular guyyy?
and the rest?
:unknown.
HAHAHAHA
heeeheee, ok whatever,
but just to tell you,
however all you think i am in school, or see me as,
is the exact opposite of me at home.
hey,
i am the youngest in the family.
and you know what they say...
*grins*
xx,
alterego(;
thanks fo caring,
if you happen to.
2.18pm.
hmm, some lil post. teehee
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Sunday, May 31, 2009,1:23 PM |
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nobody likes being cold.
im cheatin im cheat.
muahahha.
my mothers outside,
waterin the plants.
im in, here,
doin this.
heehee.
i hardly studied justnow ):
only, did a bit of my art hw, practiced piano,
and time fleww (yes, im that slow :)
...then my mum called me fo tea (:
got out of room. went kitchen.
and toasted lemon curb and butter toast.
hmmmmmmmmm, very the tasty (:
yes, sour-ness makes me sweeter that ever. *grins*
hehehe.
anyways, its 5.48, just saying,what?
i love the time (;
well, not really.
i just love my watch,
with the time. :D
babyG rules.
oww,
that reminds me; holiday, wanna google,
see thissy thatty,
but of course,
im not lookin fo a replacement yet la.
my babys still perfectly fine.
especially after i brushed it with my previous tooth brush.
*winks to nader and christine*
its whiter than ever.
now, just gotta wait fo holiday,
then can wash my bag too...
and,
relax the mind.
(:
"gosok gosok gosok"
mind in the washin machince... (:
up
and
...
dowwn...
O.0?
HAHA!
what? XD
anyways, ps.
my sis rightnow out to bandar with her bf and his mother.
when my mum picked me justnow from school she was like, "jiejie go bandar with her mother in law" ):
then i was like, O.o?
hahha,
seriously, she wont stop bullying my sister bout him.
XD
but whatev.
im not in involved in the criticisms, nor the compliments department,
hes... fine, i guess.
*shrugs*
anyyywayys,
...OW! there *dogs barking*
theyre just back.
BYE *waves*
/////
haha, yeah right --,
moooviing onnn:
to today's.... aa,
business?
(;
today, our school finally had fire drill. haha.
its was during maths time, when they started soundin the gong (yes, the chinese new year/lion dance gong, LOL, we hav no siren. COMPROMISE (;
suddenly suddenly,
then susan and all the rest closest to the door, was like, jumpin up from their sits, (HAHAHAHH)
..then they rethinked, (ello, theres no real fire), regained their cool, and wanted to sit back down, (HAHAHHHAHHAH) but then again,(HAHA) realised theyre suppose to get their asses running to the assembly point.
AHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH
lol, mostly i noticed most is susan (she sits next to me)
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA
up duck run!
*snickers*
haahha, still love you susan ;D
haaaaa, ^^
MUAHAHAHHAHHHAHH,
my reaction was, very slow.
lol,
whn i heard i was like, "ee, whats with the noise" ><'' (hahah, i wasnt in my bestiest moods, no surprise, what with that idiot less than a meter away, whisper whisper whisper. -____- id like to stuff the teachers hair in you mouth, and see how you whisper through that xp then i realised it was the siren, didnt really paid much attention to "realising" hahahahhahiah, to busy lookin at the reactions of my classmates. (HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA) ...haaaaa hhaaaaa haaaa. LOL, okay okay, sorry. ... *coughs* .. AHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA x10 aaaa, haaaa haaa okay, okay (: *zips mouth* .... puffff, hahahahahahhahahahhahah.... lol lol lol
lalalalalalalallalallalalallalaalallalallala, ahhahahahahhaha.
okay okay. seriously.
so then i turned to look at brenda,
aa, nothing funny there, she was just wearin a sinister grin.
then nader, HAHHHAHAHAH
she looked so excited. HAHAHAH
she was like :D
hahahahahhaha,
LOL
okayokay,
hahaha,
no disrespect der der,
very cute.
like a lil girl jumpin high fo a lollipop an adult is holding above her head.
...
HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHA
ok okay.
so yeah, run, or rather, took our precious time walkin, to the assembly point.
HAHA, (;
we're donkeys,
you wont get us running like idiots,
unless theres a real fire,
then we'll run and screams like a bunch of girls, which we are (;
HAHA,
haaa, imagine that/
XD
*lol*
...
...
breathe in,
breathe out.
hahah, okay...
so, yeah, it was boring,
got to the assembly point, then stood around fo what, 15 mins maybe? duno and dun really care (:
its wasnt very hot, so, not too bad.
then they asked us to go back hall. then listen to the police and fireman talk.
~talk away, almight fire fighters! *salutes*
XD
aa, what? so lame.
-_______________- sighs. lemons.
tsk tsk...
anyways, blablabla...
then they were done, and we got extra 10 mins break fo doin good.
LOL, walkin slowly, very the good, we shall do that again next time, XD
....
blebleblabla...
♥
says
"im lost im lost"
winks (;
hahaha.
me say:
i cant tahan your cuteness (;
illfs :x
Brenda says:
hahaha.. Cnt tahan xxxx xxxx's cuteness?
my answer?
hmm,
yes.
indeeeeeed.
(;
jahhahahhha
cassie says:
Wuisehh..cant tahan whose cuteness? XD
my answers?
:x
hahha, sure not that stupid s la of course.
XD
hahah.
sorry, but i dont give informations away, that, easily. (:
♥
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"Everywhere"
by michelle branch:
Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh
And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you
I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?
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aa, yes, i missed that song, its been so long since i heard it.
can it be considered a classic yet?
lol.
nothing beats the classics (;
surprisely, that song, rips the words needed fo me to describe him, right outta my mouth.
yes, my personal sun's back (:
that day,
when he seemed sad,
i felt like ice during winter.
*
Ever wondered,
does ice,
like being cold?
ever think they're just waitin fo someone,
to come along,
to melt them?
*
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so the "d-pest-ed"
click
that!
depression,
everyone seems to have it lately,
like seriously :
-
depressed,
everyone seems depressed.
either that or, sad, angry, etc etc.
-
dont like admittin that, im kinda one of them ): but
what with my previous post, post on 24th april, ending of 23rd april,
and like i said,
(if youre actually a loyal reading. /haha! yeah right, dont make me laugh\)
" Im a very messed up kid, more messed up than any of you'al will very know. "
it sucks.
cause i really dont wanna be one of them.
*NO OFFENCE AT ALL TO "them"*
i just, dont like being,
one
whose dramatic,
whose a whiner,
whose spoilt
and all the negatives you can even think of.
and once i again a shall quote myself,
"i dont wanna be bad"
who does, really,
if you think about it.
):
sighs.
i feel like just typin all the craps out rightnow.
just rip them rids of me.
quote again,
" okay, startin today, ive decided to really make an effort to blog, properly.meaning; to actually blog about what im thinkin/whats on my mind/botherin me/etc etc.A blog's suppose to be very therapeutic, in that way.And i need therapy.Im a very messed up kid, more messed up than any of you'al will very know.sighs.so yeah, im making... an effort (:whether, that will actually result in me actually bloggin, im not sure.but ill try, to. "
what the hell am i qoute all these fo.
ee, there just there *points down*
scroll down,
if you even bother.
which im sure you wont.
^^v
all good.
sighs.
one more problem with me a realise, through bloggin.
i tend to have "typing-moodswings".
like seriously.
----
im not one fo moodswings in real life,
at least not publicly,
in my sweet room,
yes.
<3
i love my room (:
but still, never anything drastic.
cause i love my room.
im always happy there.
i relax...
but, then, a problem that occured this month, which really, really, pissed me off.
...
and again,
i really dont have time fo this now.
-------
im suppose to be studyin,
and i was.
just took my playin time first,
since 1:30 ^^
till now ):
3.36pm :
lol,
i was bout to stop, and head to my room to start, but, soo, soo, very unfortunately, naders blog happens to be the last one i was readin.
and sht.
she made me...
scared? paranoid?
tingle?
:
seriously!
reason WHY i restrict myself from all forms of horror etc etc.
):
BUT
oh, but but but
^^
it was nice.
(:
nice as in interestin.
agreed with christine.
^^
BUT STILL!
e-he-eeeee
*tingles*
and now, i really gotta go.
it 3.42. almost 4.
-_____________________________-
sighs/
maybe later?
cause i cant off my laptop just yet, its busying scanning ):
and yes, duno why, these days, its being very naughty,
slow thing.
...
...
LOL.
"its being very naughty"
hahah,
sounds so Izan.
(pelihan dj, if you listen)
...
hahha.
so, yeah, maybe, but hopefully not,
later.
tata
busy busy busy.
EXAMS.
on the 4th.
aaa, enough la.
sssssssttop.
kay,
bye! ^^
*waves*.
.....
.....
...
....
...
ee, ENOUGH!
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its 10.24pm. i havent plan out my book report, to be submitted tomore. :
why ''plan out'' cause i stupidly agreed to borrow my book where were suppose to do it in to nader. i totally forgot i needed it fo book report! I only remmbered when i got home, and i was like -________________________- sht.
ee,its 10.26.
" i m - s u p p o s e - t o - s t a r t - g e t t i n g - t o - s c h o o l - e a r l y - t o m o r o w ! "
damn, how am i suppose to do it now. i need to plan the damn report. sht.
ee, and im not sure why im posting.
*fck, there goes my mum blablabla*
bloody hell.
im not in the mood.
blablablabalablabaakaablakalalala
-________________-
whatev!
aa,
fine.
whatever.
shuttin down.
.
.
.
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i wont be lost,
♥
i dont wnna be lost.
i knw my way ;
straight to you.
illfs. :x
♥
hmm, will that be a new thing of mine? postin my msn msg bfore every post? LOL... what can i say ^^
so i just got back from all my busybodying, in bracket; reading peoples' blogs (:
last visited naderss.
"ee, BIGGER pleeease. juling man my eyes after readin."
: p
/!\ she'll kill all your eyes. /!\
anywho, yeahh, read her blog la, if you dare. (; to read bout the fire drill briefing we had today. i find no reason to say my part of the story, cause, i absolutely dont have one.
sighs.
i didnt see him today at all. not even a glimpse )':
im blind to everything else, without my sun, to shine his light... i know im being a total retard sayin this hell-ishly cheezy stuffs, but, sad to say, whats next is worse.
"i missed him"
---__________________________---
ee, so yeahh, whatever. ill save you by stopin that, there.
So, what else do i have to say about today?
aa, well, lets see eyh... well, there always...
THAT bloody !%(&#@! WEIGHT OF BOOKS WE NEED TO
CARRY EVERY SATURDAY TO SCHOOL.
yeahh, so, we student have about, TWO options.
1. Put as much of your books as you can fit, in your bag.
disadvantages:
youll probably cause the death, of your bag. (and if you love your bag, like i do, thats shitty-ly not an OPTION AT ALL)
doin that fo a long term, will result in you, stayin the height you are rightnow. (whether your happy with your current height, it doesnt matter)
makes you look dumpy.
BACKBONE PROBLEM!
and yeahh, repeat. YOUR BAG'S STATE! have pity.
advantages:
youll stay short. (if you dont wanna GROW)
youre be able to get a new bag. (if you enjoy being SPOILT)
youll look dumpy. (if you like lookin dumpy! ^^)
2. Saperate them, put some in your bag, while carrying some too.
advantages:
- sorry, i dont know any other. bags the first priority XD -
disadvantages:
you might develop long arms. (maybe, i dont know! you try xp)
when its as heavy as ours every saturday, itll serious hurt your arm. (like just now, i think the damn books blocked my veins at the arm, my arm felt like it was being stabbed by little knifes, or bit by pestky little fireants afterwards)
So yeahh, arrgh. and i thought when some parent went and complain about the weight of their childs school bag in the bullitin, it would help. Of course that was like, maybe february's? but still!
"Teachers...... aa, forget it. i dont know what to say."
what do we know rights? were just dumb aliens (:
yeahh, thats us.
WE HAVE NO BONES!
NO BACKBONE THAT WILL SOON HAVE PROBLEMS!
*cheers*
anyways, think ill end things here. tomoro my mother will be goin to my cousin's some kinda of "goin-back-to-the-family-of-the-husband-gathering thingy" or what what. Her weddin was last sunday, yeahh, of course i went. lol. just didnt say anything bout it. maybe tomoro kay/
and also, and also, tomorrow's
Mother's Day!
i dont have anything fo her actually. hmm, shes always wanting me to draw something, like i always would when i was just, a bit younger, few years ago. But, im lazy now. hmm, hehheh, what can i say when you get older, and go higher in school, you get more lazy.
but hey, thats just me, so dont go speardin that around. XD it has not been proven.
Oh, bfore i go : TODAYS BULLETIN says Adam Lambert is gay/bisexual.... pufff
10.15 pm
nighty nights.
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Saturday, May 9, 2009,9:08 PM |
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youve got be pulled (;
♥
youre runnin in & out of my head,
stompin and walkin all over my heart;
you've got be pulled (;
illfs. :x
♥
hmm, so yeahh. thats my msn msg fo today.
so, overall, i dont know how to summarise it! So yeah, i didnt really blogged fo the past days, so, all you readin who dont know me, -haha, left out la. But whatev, all you need to know.
TUESDAY, 5th may, yesterday. 1:30 from school. 2:00 at chung hwa.
badminton.
and yes, i told you so. i lost. yeahh, everyone that day lost. sad.. but yeahh, i know i suck kay. im workin on it, but, sighs... habitats are like MOSQUITOS THAT WONT DIED! (hahah, weird thing to compare with, but yeahh, i hate mosquitoes)
so yeahh, i know kay, i know. And im sorry, teacher. im a pain, arent i? hmm, i knew i couldnt do it. Not being a negative ass, but just being rational. i know what i can, and what i cant do. But ill workin on it, fo no one by me. i do enjoy badminton, i really do. i just... dont like... the.. aa, i dont know! But whatevs, its over. At the end of the day, yeahh, i was kinda, ermmm, down, mayb? but aa, what can i do. i just felt bad, fo teacher.
gahh, thats why i quited! i dont like being a pain in the butt, fyi. -_________-
and i dont like, ppl treatin me like im dumb, who does rights? but, im not pointin any fingers... [ ! ] aa, forget it. just forget it. ee, im gettin really fcked up lately.
my systems all messed up.
i really hope i can get myself together. and (in case); No, i am not talkin bout badminton here, anymore, just, bout.. me. I know you wont get me, so ill just say this;
"Im expecting too much in return. Good deeds dont need to be
given credit all the time. -Do good things with a willing heart,
dont be expectin any thing better in return."
heard that, michell? gahh, stop being such a bitch... i could really slap myself. seriously, whats wrong with me. i didnt use to be so... demanding, spoilt [?], paranoid [?], so... un-sincere. aa, whats up with me. ><''
anyways, go back to today.
its 9.48pm now.
im too not in the mood to do my commerce homework.
- i gotta sleep now.
---
being late to school, is seriously turning into a permanent thing.
but yeahh, to my class teacher:
"Dont go pointin out things that arent always, always. Otherwise, ill have this gut feelin to be what youre askin fo."
(:
just like if youre goin be a bitch with me,
ill be one right back at cha.
(;
---
but yeahh, tomoro assembly.
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
kay, now, before i go.
Go back to the top topic of this post.
♥
kay, i dont know how to explain.. anything!
as i said, my systems totally fried.
im not exactly actin myself,
or maybe im converting.
but if thats so,
be sure as hell i wont let it happen.
i dont wanna be bad.
-----
LOL
(movin on)
-----
i dont know la.
the last sentence of it, maybe says it all/
"you've got me pulled"
(haha, coincidences time fo a while: i forgot who already said it, i think danny from mcfly, if i remembered correctly. he said, "Get your coat love, youre pulled"
and honestly, i dont really understand that, but, ahhaahha, i kinda feel like, like.. fo eg, justnw, he past by... i dont know! i just feel, like, some weird weird gravity or force is, dying to...
follow him.
and seriously, i feel like hes stompin all over my heart, and runnin all over my mind during classes; its killin me.
but then again,
i really dont mind.
(:
oh, and fo the last little part, ee, dont think to much bout that. you dont need to know (;
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