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hi, how are you?

You've been too good, for too long.

Truth is, I wouldnt at all mind seeing you down. I dont mind not seeing a smile on your face, and i dont mind you being overly withdrawn. I dont care whether your personal life's just great or a serious bitch. I'd like to see you cry, frustrated, pissed, annoyed, irritated, angry, and feeling like crap. I want you to be insecure about yourself and paranoid with all the people you call 'friends.'

I want you for once to have a bad day, a bad week, a bad year, or a bad life.
I want you to show that you're an actual human being.
I want you to be sad.
Truth be told, and simple as that.

So, now im just wondering why can't i just stop, smiling around like an idiot, making your day better and acting as if we're perfectly fine, when i really should be giving you what you deserve. You are terrible.

Wonder why.
Can't I hate you for long.
And actually standby that.

'cos truth is, i do

dislike you.

Labels: for too long., you've been too good

Tuesday, January 26, 2010,10:20 PM | comment | 0 comment(s)

boo! (:

So, i was eating lunch. 1.30pm, maybe. Yeah. Eat eat eat. Was eatin the letfover pasta. Good enough! Pasta is love! Leftover, or no leftover, i do, not, carree! :D Heheh, i've been on my 'no appetite thing' again, it like happens every year, when i just feel sick eating meat and all this and that. Just gotta force things down my throat, you know, to make sure no gastric, etcetc, but didnt go unnoticed by the parents ofcourse. I've been pretty moody.
reasons, no appetite, and no mood.. for school. Ha.

So, yadah yadah yadah, i was eating alone in the kitchen. Weather was nice. Cool, about to rain, but havent. Oh, and about the rain.. was kinda bumbed that on saturday it stopped. Like damn, yknow, my school hasnt fcking flood yettttt. Awwwr. HAHA. yeah, etcetc.
Eat, eat eat, pasta pasta pasta. Was listening to radio too. Frankie was on. He was playing all those glee stuffs. He played "Dont Stop Believing" -heard it.

The he played another one. Started as Bon Jovi's Its My life.. noticed the voice wasnt BonJovi's tho.. i was like, "eh, hmmm" .... listenlisten, thought the voice was nice.... lalalla, listenlisten. Then, BOOM!

Changed to Confessions by Usher. :D HAHAH, and ... LALALALALLALALALALALLALALALALLALALALALLALAL,

I
KNEW
THE
voice!

ALALALLALALALALALALALLALALALALALALLALA,

at first right, i was like, hmmm, must be another glee one again, sighs, listen listen, then heard the voice... frozed with my fork in my pasta ..."ehh..O.o?" continue... went to the chorus part, his voice went high.

AND I KNEWWW!
Knew knew knew..
:D
Kevin McHale's.
Former NLT member.

Damn, was kinda giddy afterthat. HAHAH.

Its not like, i was surprise to hear him. I knew he was in Glee. Think knew since december 2008, or smthg, but that time nobody really knew glee. So i didnt care much. Blablabla. then came May 2009.. now if you rmmber. i posted about NLT splitting... yeah, the one with the devastated orangutan face, (HAHA).. yeah, and i know, i sucked so much that i never even rambled here about my 'grief' ... hahahah, truth is, got many stuffs and updates i never posted. Pretty much a year over dued.

:D yeahhhh, i suck ^^

but, srsly, i miss NLT. Missed KevinMchale. But now i see him on starworld everyday for the Glee promo's. I was giddy enough lastime watching him on an, actual TV, that time for Zoey 101. When he was still in the band again, that. Then now, i see his face, on lots of actual stuffs. Radio, (but today was my first time hearing a glee song on radio, probbly cause didnt listened much last month :D... TV... real youtube interview... lastime it used to be those small small stuffs...

sighs, i got lots of stuffs to reminisce. Obsession stuffs :D Obsession stuffs you probby wont care about. HAHA. :D hehe.

So, nexttttimmeee! Its 10.10pm now alrdy anyways. Tomorrow, is another day of school. Another day of learnin.

Learning how not to die, etc etcetc. :}

See if i can actually sleep early today... i duno. Usually, i still end up sleeping at earliest, 11.15 or 11.30pm. Err, but i just feel sleepy. On sunday, i felt from 11pm to 11am. As easy as that, like it was holiday again. Hah. Err, i wanna sleep 12hrs again!! HAHA. But probbly shouldnt. Im getting lazy. :D no surprise.

And sighs, ive gotta revise a bit of Bio, cause monster sheeja's gonna ask again tomorrow... Haiya, honestly, i know i know, her method of teaching, works for many ppl, like lazy ppl, she'll make you think she'll punish you if you dont study, but she wont, really... but i cant help it. shes making me go crazy. srsly, soon, i might just have a heart attack/.

HAHAHAH, kidd, of course, but srsly, i dont like it, for me. My opinion. -Unnecessary. Arrgh.

BLABLABLA, kay la. its 10.17pm. Better stop. Got stuffs to attend to. Important stuffs.

Oh, btw, have i mentioned. I heard theyre introducing a new punctuation mark. For Sarcasm. Called smthg like ''sarmark',' Smthg like that. I heard. Radio.

Huh.

Anyways, was chatting with Avery about all those, and i ended up being kinda hyper with him :) Then now im a bit depressed/moody again. Arrgh, tomorrow. Yeah, obviously, i havent chnaged. Blah.
Oh, have i mentioned, todays my first day, actually being early. By a min or 2 only, tho. *sly smile.
MUAHAHAHHHAHAAHHA, lets see tomorrw, i think... im not gonna make it. Oh, well. :D

But, srsly, come bfore 7.05am... -__-"

Plus, i duno why, my dads not makin me coffe these days. Its always Milo or Hot Choco. WHERES MY GOLD COFFEE? I NEED MY BABY!!

.....

I HAVENT DRINK SINCE LAST YEAR, youknoowwww?! ONE YEAR AH....
*giggles. HAHAHAH, okk la.. lame-ness.

Ok, ok. Time to go. Bleh. *sigh. Leave you with the song. Im guessing maybe most of you've heard alrdy? Yeah well, todays my first day actually researching Glee. Hm, gonna watch the premiere on starworld, on wednesday, right after.... american idol... chengg chenggg chenggg, hahha.
This season better as hell not be Simon's last. Its nothing without Simon. :'( tears.

OK, OK. I should shut up now. :X

Oh, have i also mentioned that many ppl like Kevin's voice ^^.

Youtubers:
1.ARTIE ARTIE ARTIE!!!!!!
2.Artie has a unique voice its so sexual and different!!!!!!! puck is so hott. My friend and I agrue all the time who is hotter,Artie or puck....I say puck. i think he should have more solo songs!!!!!!
3.Artie does. He's better than Finn I think. His voice.
4.ARTIE IS HOTT!!! HAHA

hahh, i love the people of the world's comments. :D

heehee

Labels: glee. kevinmchale. former NLT :(

Monday, January 18, 2010,9:47 PM | comment | 0 comment(s)

i thank the net for a good few hours of night

Especially this person, for being a fantastic tumblr-er :D
http://anniesheart.tumblr.com/

And so, it comes the time to lay my head to rest again. Tomorrow's a Monday, again. I have to do this and that, again. And i regret telling you, again, that im not at all very happy with the whole concept of school at the present given moment.

Thankyou verymuch for reading this lousy piece of crap thats supposedly is my update of the week.

Ladies and Gents, i give you, ME.<

Labels: i suck suck suck. school suck suck suck. ahh.

Sunday, January 10, 2010,10:58 PM | comment | 0 comment(s)

finally found a suitable x100 situation to use this for...

It's 11.51. Tomorrow school, tomorrow school. Tomorrow is in less than 10mins. School, school, school. Wake up at what, 6am? What time school kan? I totally forgot. Ha.

Ah, ah, ah. I know, i should b sleepin. Its time for hibernation cause by depression. Well, no, not really. Im not actually ''depressed.'' Not really, but, whatever.

Err, sleep. I can't sleep. Arrgh, so probbly cant wake tomorrow either, huh? Ah, blablabla, fine. I'll try goin to sleep, but if that doesnt happen, then i'll just read HP order of the phoenix til 2 or til i sleep, duh. Yes, goin back to being so old school and being left in the past. Outdated. Youknow thats so true when even my mum can say that to me. And yes, im serious, she said that to me. ; Yeah, well, i havent read it yet. And i just bought it in KK the otherday. Oh, right forgot to mention that i was in KK from 16th to 21st Dec, didnt i? Thats why i didnt blog. Well that and lazy too, duh. Lalalalalala, argh, its 12.00am sharp. ... 12.01am.. lalalallalalallalalalalalalalalalallalallalallalalalalalala, 12.02am... .... ... .... ..........

Oh, almost forgot, dyed back the hair justnow and look like crap. Cheers for school, eyh? --"

Labels: blek blek blek, school school school

Sunday, January 3, 2010,11:48 PM | comment | 0 comment(s)

happy new year!

HAPPY 2010

(OMG, IM ALWAYS SALAH TYPING HARRY 2010, HA!)

2010!

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Even if you're not so happy, and not so festive. Who cares. (: Im not either. I welcomed the newyear watchin HighSchoolMusical stuffs on disney cause there was nothing else, with my mum, cause brother's out working late (and was pissed bout it, like seriously, pissed, shouted on the phone with my mum, whoo) sister's out in bandar with fwens etc etc, empire fireworks, and dad's out... yes, out at seeea.

So, just me and mumzy. Bought pizza; the starbites thing, yeah, not so nice. 2 ayamku. gralic beard and chicken wings came with the pizza... yeah, not so nice. Watched HSM3 senior year, pff, watched bfore.

Oh, and our Amah went out to bandar as well that day. So we had to do our own dishes. Haha.

And then the clock striked 12, and that was it. Free fireworks by neighbours atleast ;)

Happy New Year. 2010.

Now's officially the 2nd day of the year.

1.30am.

Havent slept, duh :D

and surprisingly, tomoro,

or i mean, later on in the day, when the sun's out ofcourse(:

leaving home at 9am,

mum wanna take us watch movie.

the

cinema.

wow.

cinema.

public place.

to watch princess n the frog.

wow.

cinema.

it will officially be my 2nd time watchin in a cinema.

wow.

we're goin kiulap atleast right.

lets hope its deserted

and the popcorn's extra yummy yeahh.

then we'll have it all to oursleves,

private n personal.

yeahhh.

but not likely right, or mayb?

ah.

sighs.

*sarcasm sarcasm sarcasm

i just dont do cinemas.

Happy new year ppl.

School's on Monday.

Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.

and once again,

happy 20-10!

: p

Labels: happy 2010

Saturday, January 2, 2010,1:21 AM | comment | 0 comment(s)