i wanna ... pluck someone's hair out til theyre completely bold :D
check the time. its 2.30pm. :D & im still in my pink PJs. :D & i didnt brush my teeth! :D nor have i combed my hair once with my comb yet. LOL. a tab bit too much info. LOL. im so untidy. not to mention unhygienic hehehehe,
i feel good, na na na na na, i know that i would now, na na na na na, ( wait, i mean, i didnt know that i would now ), so good, THAT I'VE GOT YOU! na na na na na, (errm, that i've not got you ) ... SO GOOD. TA TA TA TA TA !
Wednesday, November 25, 2009,2:30 PM |
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im gonna watch teen cribs in 4 mins (:
TEEN CRIBS TEEN CRIBS. i have to admit i love. & blablablabla ... today was a shitty ass. & i was considering/hoping to skip the stupid Graduation tomorrow. but ... my mum's not cooperating. When i told her the teacher ''asked'' to darken my hair, temporary, some-fucking-how, she just laughed. o.o" laughed, as in, evil laugh. follow by the words, "dont care lahh" by her, & my sister. And! she asked, "why are you so scared of the teacher?" And i said, "IM NOT SCARED. IM ANNOYED/!"
11.oopm. MTV, rich kiddies! *drools. BYE.
today was a bitch. but im really hoping to see Ryan Shecklers place!
Monday, November 23, 2009,10:56 PM |
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i'll be waiting for the call that'll slap me in the face over and over again, like it was a real person. shouting at me what i just got. - to sulk.
thursday thursday thursday. Tomorrow.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Tomorrow tomorrow.
Gosh, i need to pee now.
bleblebleblebleblablablablabla.
... Im watching rich kiddies with gila pretty houses. *drools,
TEEN CRIBS.
its crazy. i envy :D hehe,
than after that Sweet Sixteen. :D long time didnt watchh.
and tomorrow 11.30am piano...
tomorrow.
tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow.
yeah, you've got it. im distracting myself. but im bouncing my legs up and down everytime. and i reaally need to pee now. :D heh!
AND, thats the second kid that has a Mini Cooper. *my dad's dream car. yussh, im hoping ill be the one who can finally get him one... my motivation... ; money.
LOL.
shit,
tomorrow.
gosshhh. tomorrow.
ahh, i really NEED to pee.
Sweet Sixteen next, in 5 mins. Now 11.25pm.
Yes, distracting self.
distract. distract. distract.
time to go toilet.
:p
wait, one question. do i sound giddy now/? gossh, actually, im, scared. seriously. S.C.A.R.E.D. fuck, i really should have just gone through and pierce my ear justnow. then ill be wincing in pain everytime i accidentally do smthg stupid. which is always. HEH :D
Wednesday, November 18, 2009,11:11 PM |
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she pisses me off. i don't wanna hear her. so lets go deaf.
I HATE ALL THESE PASSPORT SHITS. I HATE THEM. I HATE THAT I HAVE TO WAKE KINDA EARLY & GET READY & GO KB & GO TO THAT BUILDING. FIRST, I DONT FEEL LIKE GOIN ANYWHERE. WAKE UP EARLY? FINE. I CAN DO THAT. SURE, NO PROB, REALLY... WAKE UP EARLY & GO KB? FUCK, I DONT WANT. I RATHER STAY HOME... GO KB, DO STUFFS LIKE MAKING PASSPORT, SHIT, IM NOT IN THE MOOD... FINE, LEAVE ME HOME WHILE YOU GO KK! DONT SAY IT AS IF YOU DONT CARE WHETHER I GO OR NOT. CAUSE, YUU-HUU, IM YOUR YOUNGEST. AND YOUR TWO OLDER ONES, HAVE BETTER THINGS TO CONSIDER DOIN. LIKE WASTING MONEY HANGING WITH FRIENDS. SO DONT SAY IT AS IF YOU DONT CARE. AS IF ITS ALL "IF I WANNA GO, I BETTER... , OTHERWISE WE LEAVE YOU." ITS NOT ALL ABOUT ME. OK? I DONT HAVE A FUCKING LIFE? YEH. ILL DO NOTHING USEFUL. IM FINE WITH THAT. CAUSE I DONT HAVE A LIFE. I FUCKING KNOW THAT. SO WHAT? IM 15TEEN, HOW FAR/HOW MUCH COULD I DO ANYWAYS? IN MY STATE? I FEEL LIKE CRAP. I FEEL NERVOUS. I FEEL LIKE SLEEPING TIL THE END. I FEEL SO NERVOUS, THAT IT COULD DEFINITELY QUALIFY AS "SCARED." WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DISTURB MY HIBERNATION. ITS THIS THURSDAY, OK, OR, AT LEAST, IN BOUT 2 WEEKS TIME, THE MOST, MAYBE. OK? DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE UP MY ASS? ALL THE TIME? ALL, ALL THE TIME? DO YOU, HAVE, TO? REALLY? WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT, I CANT STOP CRYING. I CRY, THEN I STOP, I GO OUT AND GIVE THE STUFFS TO YOU, I GO BACK TO MY ROOM, AND I CRY. MY MIND ISNT EVEN THINKING OF ANY KIND OF SHIT. SO WTF AM I CRYING? ITS LIKE IT EXIST EVEN WHEN IM DEAD. IM NOT THINKING ABOUT IT. IM NOT THINKING ABOUT ANYTHING. IM NOT WANTING TO CRY, AND AM NOT WAITING TO. IM NOT THAT MUCH OF A DRAMA ASS. OR WAIT, AM I? OH, GUESS SO EH? ITS LIKE ITS MY NATURAL STATE OR SOME SHIT.
BUT, LASTLY, YOU REALLY DO PISS ME OFF. YOU SERIOUSLY, DO.
FUCK, AND YES, ITS A FUCKING ANOTHER WEDNESDAY TOMORROW. PAPA WILL BE GOIN OFFSHORE FOR A WEEK. HE'LL MISS DOIN THE PASSPORT WITH ME. HE'LL MISS, THE MAYBE ANNOUNCEMENT OF THE RESULTS. HELL, HE'LL MISS MY GRADUATION, BY ONE FUCKING DAY. FUCK, WHY, COULDNT IT BE ON THURSDAY NIGHT. WTF TUESDAY... HE'LL BE MISSED. HE'LL BE WISHED THAT HE WASNT WORKING FOR THIS PARTICULAR FUCKING WEEK... BY ME.
SO, YEAH, TODAY, I FEEL MORE CERTAIN THAT IM DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL, THEN MUMMY'S ANGEL, PEHH, LIKE AS IF. HE WAS FINE WITH IT. HE SAID PASS, CAN ALRDY. THAT MEANT A LOT. HA. SO FUCKING MUCH THAT I CANT STOP TEARING UP RIGHTNOW. YES, RIGHTNOW. MY NOSE'S RUNNING, AND SO ARE THE TEARS, DOWN MY CHEEK. MY FINGERS ARE WET FROM RUBBING THEM AWAY. THIS KEYPAD IS STARTING TO FEEL STICKY.
SO, YEAH, I DARE AS HELL SAY IT TODAY, I WISH IT WAS MY DAD WHO RESIGNED AND IS ALWAYS HOME, RATHER THAN MY MUM. WHICH IS JUST STUPID. CAUSE, HERES THE THING; I LOOK LIKE MY MUM. ALMOST EXACTLY. MAYBE THE ONLY FACIAL FEATURE I GOT FROM MY DAD ARE MY LASHES... AND IM CLOSE WITH MY MUM. IM SO FUCKING MANJA WITH HER. BUT... SHE REALLY PISSES ME OFF. SHES THE ONE ALWAYS GIVING ME EMOTIONAL TORMENTS. SHES THE ONE ALWAYS PUSHING THINGS WAY TOO FAR. SHES THE ONE, SINCE I COULD RMMBER, WAS THE USUAL REASON I CRIED WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. SHE JUST WONT LET IT GO. SHE TALKS ABOUT A FUCKING TOPIC THAT JUST PISSES ME OFF, AND SHE KNOWS THAT, AND SHE'LL GO ON AND ON... AND WHEN I START CRYING, SHE'LL SCOLD ME FO CRYING. I RMMBER, I USED TO CRY A LOT IN RESTUARANTS LASTIME, CAUSE THATS WHEN SHE ALWAYS STARTING TALKING ALL THE SHITTY THINGS. I WOULD START CRYING. AND SHE'LL COMPLAIN ABOUT PEOPLE LOOKING. BOUT ME LOOKING LIKE A BABY. HA, AS IF I DONT KNOW THAT, AS IF I WANTED THAT. I RMMBERED, ME TRYING SO HARD TO STOP, TO REALLY STOP, BUT I COULDNT. I SOBBED LIKE HELL AND SOUNDED LIKE A STUPID CAR ENGINE THAT WOULDNT START... BUT I COULDNT STOP. I RMMBER ALWAYS VOWING THAT I'LL STOP TALKING TO HER. HA, LIKE IM THE ONLY ONE WHOSE EVER THINKED LIKE THAT.
YOU GET REALLY PISSED, AND YOU PROMISE YOURSELF THAT YOU'LL NEVER TALK TO THAT PERSON AGAIN, THAT YOU'LL GIVE UP BEING SO CLOSE WITH THAT PERSON. BUT THAT WONT LAST. SOON, YOULL BE TALKING AGAIN. CAUSE YOU'RE FAMILY.
THIS HAPPENED SO MANY TIMES, WITH MY BROTHER, MY SISTER, MY MOTHER... AND THE LEAST, MY FATHER. DIDNT HAPPEN MANY TIME, BUT DOESNT MEAN IT DIDNT HAPPEN. LASTIME IT ALWAYS HAPPEN WITH MY BROTHER, CAUSE HE WAS JUST A JACKASS, HE STILL KINDA IS.. BUT, FOR THE FEW YEARS LATELY, ITS ALWAYS BEEN WITH MY MUM. SINCE SHE RESIGNED, WE GREW CLOSER, TRUE. I RMMBER SHE PROMISING STUFFS LIKE SENDING ME FO PIANO LESSONS, OR GUITAR OR WHATEVER I WANTED TO LEARN. I RMMBER THIS ONE TIME, SHE SAID SORRY TO ME. CAUSE SHE SCOLDED ME FOR NO REASON WHEN I TRIED MANJA MANJA WITH HER, JUST CAUSE SHE WAS ANGRY THAT TIME, BUT NOT CAUSE OF ME... NOW, HOW OFTEN DOES THAT HAPPEN? THAT A MOTHER SAYS SORRY TO HER CHILD. I WAS HAPPY THAT TIME. I APPRECIATED IT. I WAS TOUCHED. AND NOT LIKE STUPID SOMBONG SPOILT CHILD TOUCHED OR WHAT WHAT, I APPRECIATED IT, I REALLY, REALLY DID.
BUT, ABOVE EVERYTHING, ABOVE THE FACT THAT I DO, LOVE MY MOTHER, ABOVE THE FACT THAT I AM VERY CLOSE TO HER... SHE STILL FUCKING PISSES ME OFF.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009,10:46 PM |
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dashboard confessionals : you have, stolen, my, hearttttt (: .
WAS THAT A SMILE? A TINY WEENY CUTE-SIE SMILE? DIRECTED AT ME? FOR ME? get real, please, dumb lil girl.get real. but, let my imagination run wild now, why dont we, yes? (:GOSSH, IVE BEEN HUGGING MY STOMACH QUITE A FEW TIMES TODAY. NOT SO SURE WHY. BUT, I THINK ITS CAUSE THE BUTTERFLIES WANNA FLY.pehh, butterflies wanna fly. -___-" am i hearing myself? lame.GOSH, GOSH, GOSH... gosh, why is it becoming a habit saying, "gosh" ? sounds more polite & pleasant? Hm.GOSH!blablablabla ...ARE YOU TIRED? CAUSE YOU'VE BEEN RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND ALL DAY. HAHAHAHA, cheezy! cheezy, corny, blablabla *giggles.MY GWAD.oh, wait, no, i mean, "my gosh!'' blablablablaaa ...
Doug : "Who's all in a twist now?" (winks at brenda, via. Megan Meade's Guide to the McGowan Boys) *grins(:
MY.... *big inhale*... gosh.
LOL(:
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL - STOLEN.
Ok, okay, obviously, thats not Dashboard Confessional hehehe, thats a piano acoustic cover of it. Not bad. I do like the piano part. (: YAMAHA, its everywhere. Hm, XD
Monday, November 16, 2009,9:12 PM |
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so, incase some of you havent got it yet, ive been reading the Private series, recently.
I've just finished reading that; the fourth book, CONFESSIONS, this afternoon.
So, ill be moving on to the fifth one soon (:
INNER CIRCLE.
Im not goin to blog much about them, cause... i have a feeling Brenda might want to start reading them too.
*raises eyebrows.
"Yes, brenda? (:"
& i dont wanna spoil for her :D So, brenda, forget what i postlastime. XD
She's been reading this, since i passed it to her on the 12th, the day of our trip.
i think she finished it already, cause she doesnt really like suspends. LOL,
Cant wait to see what she thinks bout the ending, cause honestly, for me, i loved it (: It was so nicely written, the ending. Yes, yes, (:
Ive realise, Kate Brian really has this way of making you love/hate the endings of her books. suspend, suspends, suspends, but, still, its a happy ending. I was rolling in bed after i finished that book, weeping bout how she must must must do a sequel to it. Cause the way she ended it, its like, another story! phulesssh? ) :
But, she wrote that few years ago, and til now, no sequel, so, shes not continuing it? )':
But, of course means shes writing Privates. Which is good good good good :D
All those previous post are from the site i posted in one of them, anniesheart.
I stumbled across that person's tumblr, and i liked it. Many of her postings are real nice. (:
Looks like i found a new daily-sites-to-visit. ^^
Anyways, im getting annoyed by the fact that i cant copy and paste stuffs here. I cant even paste that site here! In that post, i didnt even understand how come suddenly it could paste. Hm, annoying.
Oh, ps, im feeling good, true. but, pmb shits still at the back of my mind every freaking minute. the results will be out soon, thats what ppl was saying. sighs - fuck that.
The only obsession everyone wants: 'love.' People think that in falling in love they make themselves whole? The Platonic union of souls? I think otherwise. I think you're whole before you begin. And the love fractures you. You're whole, and then you're cracked open.
Every little girl dreams about her wedding day, complete with visions of a big beautiful white dress and, of course, a perfect man. But 9 year old Jayla Cooper didnt have a lifetime to wait for Mr.Right. The Southlake, TX, girl had been battling leukemia for two years, a battle that would end in just a matter of weeks. But what Jalya did have was a groom. He's here best friend, Jose Griggs, 7, a fellow patient at Children's Medical Center in Dallas. Jayla and Jose tied the knot in February 2009 to fulfill her final wish : Getting married in a beautiful wedding, surrounded by family and friends. From the flowers to the banquet hall, donations poured in to give a North Texas bride the wedding of her dreams.
Marion St. Claire: Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what.
Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your relationship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.
Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.
And once you must fall in love with someone who is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.
And when you're through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.
But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.
-Unknown.
"Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase, Hakuna Matata! aint no passing craze, It means no worries for the rest of your days, it's our problem-free philosophy!"
Enjoying the happy thoughts running through my mind, the beautiful and fun music swimming through my ears, the pretty and nice words my eyes are reading from people I dont even know.
Im feeling good, hehehehe, so... lets see where this will take me. (;
btw, i did end up giving the dogs their baths, even if it was kinda drizzling. but they were fine. well, one less thing to do tomorrow...
4.03pm. Its all dark and gloomy and windy and cool. Cause it rained justnow. Really nice, i always love it, but Im suppose to bath the dogs. So, no; the whether isnt cooperating with me. Sighs. So I guess bath 'em tomorrow?Hmm, tomorrow... Sunday... hmmm... next day, Monday... hmmm... hmmmmmmmmmmmm, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....
Imma go get myself a few bananas to munch then once again, to the not-so-wild outdoors.
Oh, wait, let me cancel that, cause I hear the thunders. Heh, the oh-so-wild-and-loud outdoors. Plus the three pooches, as always. Oh, so wild. Lol. Have a good afternoon to you too, readers. (; Bubye.
I realised less than an hour ago that I can be a serious, stalker. - One question though... or, i mean, a few ;
WOULD IT SCARE YOU IF YOU FOUND OUT ? WOULD YOU BE PISSED ? WOULD YOU START SAYING CRAP ABOUT ME ? WOULD THE FACT THAT IM A TOTAL EAVESDROPPER IRRITATE YOU LIKE CRAZY ? WOULD YOU EAT ME UP AND SPIT ME OUT ?
But, i cant escape the fact that you made me smile.Youre kinda the person I always hoped for.Maybe. But, it'll never be. I know that. And, its fine.
You dont know this. No one knows this. No one. Cause I didnt tell anyone... hm. (:
I guess its my sercet. Hmpfff; I sort of have a crush on you. Hm, *smiles.
Like in kintergarden, i'd say,
"Shhhh, don't tell anyone. Its our secret."
(:
12.01am.
Its time for me to see you in my fantasy world now... cause i won't actually in real life. I know that. But fo now, im fine with it. You made me smile. but, you dont know that neither. Hm. *smiles.
Monday, November 9, 2009,11:52 PM |
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Mother asks, "what? what you want?"
I groaned.
"I Wanna PigOut! WHERES MY BIRTHDAY CHOCOLATES?"
Gossh, im pissed. Wait, no, im irritated. Irritated likeGKJFGCFJUXYIDFGFUDXSSSAFYTIRFRDCFBKVGKYFVJCJCGK VKGVKVKBKBVHGVHVFDUERDRTGLHBVVYGK CYKBUHGCTKOVGNNKHA !
*bites chocolate with unnecessary force. Gosh, i wanna push em off a brigde. Could they get anymore annoying? Like, wtf?
*crunch crunch crunch on my crunchie hokey pokey honeycomb pieces. Crunch, crunch, crunch.
Pffff. wack each of their puny heads with a hammer.
*ALALALLALALALLALALALALALLALALALLALA.... ^^
Fine, fine. Screw this. Imma go and train some kickass pokemons! xp
*pokemon theme song.
I WANNA BE THE, VERYYYY BEST LIKE NOONE EVER WASSS TO CATCCH THEM IS MY REAAAL TEST TO TRAINN THEM IS MY CAUSSEEE I WILL TRAVEL ACROSS THE LAND SEARCHING FAR AND WIDEEE EACH POKEMON TO UNDEERRRSTTTANNNNDDDDDD
THE POWER THATS... INSIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
(CHORUS!)
POKEMON! ITS YOU AND MEEE I KNOW ITS MY DESTINYYYYYY POKEMON! OOH, YOURE MY BEST FRIEND IN A WORLD WE MUST DEFENDDD POKEMON! OUR HEARTS SO TRUE OUR COURAGE WILL PULL US THROUGHHHHH YOU TEACH ME AND ILL TEACH YOUUU POKEMON!
tick tock, 12.14am. opps, its a new day already, but rewind 14mins anyways ;)
With the images expressing what im feeling today,
with the things going through my mind today,
this is my soundtrack fo today.
Again, i would like to say nothing about me makes sense,
nothing i feel, think, like, makes one emotion.
It makes a freakin pool full of em'.
Tick Tock/ by Kesha. All The Right Moves/ by One Republic. July/ by Dashboard Confessionals. I Think About You Everyday/ by A Roket to the Moon. How you love me now/ by Hey Monday. Fireflies/ by Owl City. Take My Hand/ by the Cab ft Cassedee of Hey Monday. The Man That Cant Be Moved/ by the Script. Bad Habit/ by Varsity Fanclub.
replay, replay and replay.
woke up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy.
all the right friends in all the wrong places, they've got all the right moves and all the wrong faces.
im glad youre not part of this, cause parts of me that will be miss.
you can say that you dont miss me, i think about you everyday.
cant understand, ill slow it down for you.
i'd like to make myself believe, that planet Earth turns, slowly.
calm you nerves now, dont worry, just breathe, are you sure now, dont bother packing, just leave.
gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, if she changes her mind, this will be the first place she will go.
im like the end of another movie that you just dont get...
Sunday, November 8, 2009,11:20 PM |
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Im cant stop typing junk. Cause i feel like crap. So, sorry if i happen to bore you. Haha, but here i go again.
10.01 pm.
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to go school at 2pm to take the damn permission slip for our trip on Thursday. Honestly, I'm lazy to go school tomorrow. I do not miss that building, not one bit. I'll be okay if I wont see it ever again til next year (;
Secondly, I've been feeling so lazy to go for the trip too. Ha. But to late to quit now right. Hm, hope it'll be okay.
Wow, and old friend, Nabilah, is chatting with me. "Long time no see." LOL, yeah, about 3 years. HAHA. Hmm, but dont think ive ever been Best friends with her before though, just, friends, i guess.
Seems like shes thinking bout changing back to CCMS next year. Hm...
Anyhoo... i dint mention that my mum dyed my hair on the 2 nov yet, right? Yeahh, well, so now im saying then. Not mood to mention then cause, wasnt so happy with it. LOL. I really looked like one of those whitepeople wannabes. Ha. But, it has kinda darken a bit since than, thankfully. But, i dont know. My mum keep asking me if i wanna dyed a bit more darker the roots. Cause she dyed that day.. the color wasnt so even, the roots are like.. light color while the rest is still kinda ok. The color's Strawberry Blonde, btw. : / I know! hahahahahah.
It got me too curious kay. When buying, I already knew what colour i wanted. A kinda goldish brown. And i found it, Light Golden Brown. I chose it already. Then my mum was pointing pointing pointing, suggesting this and that, this and that. And so i saw the Strawberry blonde. And i was curious kay.
In books, they'd say "her straberry curls... blablabla'' ... I was always like.. wtf, strawberry? And my mum also kept on saying, ''it wont come out that light one. asian hair different blablabla"
And i was also thinking that i have two months... might as well do a color definately teacher wont let fo school... plus that principle lady again : / ... but i bet the golden brown would be too light fo school too... LOL, i couldnt choose, so we bought two of em. (:
When dying time, the first color my mum ask was also teh strawberry blonde.
And im not a person with the most decisive mind okay. I couldnt choose, so, wtf, just say yes loh.
And, boom.
Strawberry Blonde.
=="
But, as i've mentioned, it darken since then, and... the color's starting to grow on me (: hehehe..
But, i did convinced my mum that it just looks so... ugh, whats the right word? Weird? Super,super unnatural on me... but i wanted to shout, "I LOOK LIKE A ORANGPUTIH WANNABE!"
(:
I didnt do that, of course. *chuckles
And with the help of my sister giving weird looks when looking at my hair.. my mum was convinced. And so justnow she was suggesting that she'd dyed my hair again tomorrow morning. Just the roots, a darker colour.
But she keep askin asking. Ya, yah, as if she dont know i cant decide things easily. She always gets fuckin pissed when i answer "i dont know" to.. basically anything and everything. ==" I think every mother's like that, no?
Like what food i feel like eating? Well, i always have not much of an appetite, so i say dont know.
And she rants, duh. =="
blebleblabla..
My conclusion?
I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW.
it grew on me okay..
*sighssss.
Oh, and, tomorrow have to used uniform. A new clean uniform just for about merely 10 mins, to go to school and collect a damn permission slip?
Hmmm,mmmmm......
=="
I SERIOUSLY MALAS GO!
I actually even asked brenda if she can help me take. Hehehe, annoyed her, fo sure. TEEHEE. Sorry. HAHA, i mean it hundred percent when i say im lazy. *grins
Ok, fine, better stop. Its 10.51pm. HAHA, so lag i type this. This chatting with Nabilah, chatting bout flying to L.A. or Canada to track Justin Bieber down and make him our boyfriend. Buahahahhaa.. and heres avery with the "How are you?"
Hm, answer fo all, i guess im fine. Well, thats what i told Nabilah and Avery. LOL.
However, today was a... fuzzy day, as the pervious post suggested.
And, today, first time i cried relating to pmb.
So, yes, theres your reason why i didnt blog fo so long after it finished and fo the first few weeks of holiday... i was trying not to think so much. just staying numb, sleeping. not thinking bout it...
But i made my damn bday wish.
So, yeahh, now just try not to get to happy bout anything cause ill get hell soon, maybe, probably, hoping not.. so much.
And today also made me extra nervous.. cause my uncle called my mother today. Mainly, he called asking if my dad really wanna sell Pajero cause he has an interested fren. And honestly, this annoys me. Didnt he agreed not to sell. Arr, not the point heree.... hhehehe,
Blablabla.. before she hung up, she asked if PMB results were out yet. Duh, he said no. Then she asked him to tell her when it is, cause, being a principle, i guess he'll be among the first to find out.....
Yeahh, that helps the nerves very much.
):
11.09pm
Time to say night.
so,
NIGHT!
Today wasnt a very good day fo me, but i hope it was fo you. I really, really do.
i guess the main feeling today is sorry, sorry i missed the chance. if i ever even had one.
Last hours of my first day of officially being fifteen. Next year, SIXTEEN. Not that i wanna age quickly, but sixteen was always "known" for some shit
So just now left fo bandar at 5.30pm and got back at 9.00pm. Dinner at Tian Hock, no surprise, but big surprise, my mother didnt ordered the fried pork leg this time, liek she always does. Guess its cause i didnt mention i wanted it. But, there was another dish of p- opps, okay, nvm, forgetbout it. Being to detail bout food is never really good. My apologies. (:
Seriously, people say religion is a sensitive topic, but so is the topic of food, whether youre fat, and might go crazy fo food, or youre a skinny lil twig starving yourself; FOOD, touchy topic, i tell you. (;
Besides, it could be a good thing. I did say that i wanted to try being a ve-aaghh, forget it. Sighs, way too much of a long and touchy/close to heart story. Maybe nextime...
Anyhoo, we had 5 dishes.
yam basket with salad prawns. (THE PRAWNS WERE BIGG! :D)
crispy fried kailans. (YUMMY AS USUALLY. NEVER TASTE LIKE ITS VEGIE:D)
curry fish. (SIGHS, I THOUGHT THIS WAS MY BDAY. HMM, WHATEVER, GUESS THEY HAVE TO EAT SOME OF THEIR FAVS TOO, BUT, IN THE END, THEY HAD TROUBLE FINISHING IT CAUSE BLOATED WITH ALL THE OTHER DISHES AND MY BROTHER EVEN SAID, "SHOULD CHANGE ALREADY, GETTING BORING." HA! CURRY SUCKS. hahahahahahhah, KIDDIN! ... errm, actually no la, im not kidding, i dont, and dont wanna eat curry. Just said kiddin so you curry lovers wont be to offended ^^ HA!
mushrooms, with baby kailans. (YUMMY, DUHHH, ITS mushrooms!^^)
the pork dish. boiled or is it steam or what what what (seriously, i have zero knowledge in cooookkkiiinggggg, alallaalallaalalalalla :D) ... til its soft. The best type, i have to say. uber soft and tender... ok lah, shit, stop that. ><"
And now its 10.59pm. I think imma try getting my assy-self to sleep, errmm, considerably ok-ish early today.. and waking up, considerably early too. Hehe. Not that ive been waking up late ALL the time, but, kinda alternate days. HAHAH, when itll be the days to go beach fo walk again, have to get up at 7am. But then the next day, ill be able to wake late again... like 11am. AHHAHA, actually, its GET UP. cause my alarm rings at 9am, but snooze snooze and snooze. HHAHAHA, you know how it goes. :D
Sighs, but, im fifteen now, right. Its time to get active day by day and not, day 1 then day 4 then day 8 blablablablabla... Besides from getting active, ive got some other business to attend to (:
What sucks? Is that my dad will be off of shore tomorrow, after having leave leave leave, ever since that shitty pmb finished. Cause my freaking mum told him "my Plan" of what i wanted to do during the holidays, taht time i told her when still have PMB. Thats why when im lazy lazy she'll fucking bring that up. Shit. Dont you know, SAY SAAY ONLY BAAHHH. BESIDES, HIBERNATE FIRST BAHH. STORE ENERGY YOU KNOW!? ARAHKWVDEKCKEBKCELCBLECLEBCLEC, i was FOURTEEN kay, immature? BKDGESHCVEOCGEOBCOEBCOL, say say only, make stupid plans. never heard that before? dumb teenagers do it all the time. and HELLO, dumb teen right here.
A-HA. *nods*
*points at self*, announces, "Im a dumb teenager right here, yups yups, YOUR daughter, mumzikins."
what the fuck/ i just called myself a stupid teen.
O.O"
Wow, i had bigger issues than i'd thought. HA! ...
Anyhoo, was approaching 11.15pm, 45 mins to the end of my first day of being fifteen, and on to the second day. and blablabla... not like its special. Birthdays really lost their touch eyh? How sad. ):
Well, yeah, i didnt get, actual presents. Ahh, got up at 7.30am, cut cake, eat red eggs, blablabla the usually. The cake was nice though. Yogurt fruit cake. Its all pinky in colour. Yeahh, pink, my altimate fav childhood colour. Till my niece used to call me the Pink Aunty. ==" Yeah, as if being an ''aunty'' at the age of 8 sounds so young. But thats how things are around here, seriously weird. ): Plus, i had a roundness tummy! GUAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA XD and i used to be gigi rumpang.. but that was like, around the age of 5. HAHAHHA.
Speakin of my niece. That niece, is Wendy. Think maybe, errm, brenda? Think she remembers her. And some other ppl, but cant rmmber who came to our open house two years ago. Yeah, well, found out she took her PSR this year.
(:
Do i even have to try to predict her results? Please, that little talking-machine is a ... smarty lil pants. Now, hmmm, i forgot her age... i rmmber i asked her.. at time at the open house... i think shes 10? Hmm, i always thought she was younger. Heh, shes still annoying, but i guess getting better. She is getting older after all. And as you get old, you become less annoying but more annoyed. Get it? (;
Heh.
Approaching 11.30pm. I had my last greet few minutes ago. From the person i was trying so hard not to hate today. Seriously, i felt guilty. But, i kept telling myself; i didnt actually, hate that friend, i just... dont like who that friend's becoming... i remember that friend used to say didnt like those type of ppl... know, can you tell be who are you if you've become a person you dont like... but, i guess now you like, right? Hmmm, sighs.
Yeah, friend. I guess im still hoping. And youre not. But, its fine, its fine. All ive gotta say is, next year will set a lot of things straight.
But, at least that friend greeted me rights? I wasnt actually gonna get pissed if didnt greet anyways. Its just a bday greet. I can do without. I was just... curious if taht friend remembered.
Yeah, well, over all, thanks to everyone who greeted. Some surprised me... Damn, i really have to mark down bdays properly and wish all those who'd wished me. The conscience is starting to nibbing at the edges of my ears... seriously, arrgh, its getting a tad bit hot.
Hmm, i rmmber Susan and Sheo Yee... saying when i said sometimes my ear gets red and hot when im hot or... whatever, i dont really know when they do! Haahahah, dont take enough notice... they said their brothers were like that too.
==''
Hm, so that makes me a boy. :D hahahahah, why am i smiling.
O.O"
OMG, the lame-ness is BACK. OMG. On my birthday? seriously? sighsss.
okay okay, approaching 11.40pm.
So, go back, back, back, cut cake, yeah yeah yeah, i ddint get present from my parents. Not even a card! But, but, i get a card every year. I, I, keep them... in a big pink folder label "BIRTHDAY CARDS."
)':
*tears*
HAHAHA, kiddin. But, a bit dissappoint. Im suppose to still have mahh, when my brother and sister were 15teen, MY PARENTS EVEN BUY THEM PRESENT SAYING IT WAS FROM ME. cause, i think i was 8, or, even 5? Just cause everyone else didnt get this year, me the younger LEFT THEM child who is still JUST 15teen dont get...
You know, they jokingly gave me a hongpau with $15 RM. Say say,"cause 15teen years old so 15 dollars blablablablablba laughing laughing.
Its not funny, PARENTS.
ITS NOT EVEN $15. Thats bloody in RM. Divide 15 by 2.4 and what you get? around $7 brunei? taht really sucks. Said the books they gave money to buy at Miri that day was my present. BALGSDLDVCLKEWW. THATS NOT FUN! NOT FUN! :/
But, later in the morning my dad when office fo meeting, and my mum when seria to pay bills. She came back with JUST bought one pack of potato chips, two bars of chocos and a new hongpau with $100. ALL JUST TAKE LAA! the 100 from bank. duhh. how lame is that :\
When at dinner, my sister gave me a stuffed doll. I think its a cow? One of those animated type. Seriously, not my taste... more of hers.. but, yeahh, i know, better than nothing. My bro just wished me by msg around 3pm, my sis didnt wished my msg, but gave present. So, half half?
Hmmm, NO FUN.
HAHAHA, you readers do know im just kiddin rights? It doesnt bother me.... i dont really know why im typing this. Gosh, it seems like its gotten pretty long eyh? Well, i guess you can say my hand was itching, and besides, you ppl expect me to write more junk and usual on my birthday rights? HAHAHA, well, hope you enjoyed reading my junk. AHHAH, just to entertain my hands. LOL.
Its. 11.50pm. Imma stay up around 12.15pm just to finish up some things, besides, start my second day of being 15teen, EARLY, rights? ^^ hahaha
Damn, im really all lameness now, right i?
Ow! Forgot to drink finish my milk. *drinks* Eeee, damn, its cold... sighs...
anyho, i think i should stop now, my time of my first day of being fifteen is about out.... Damn, im majal today too. Owww, these better not be permanent characteristics! Otherwise ill probably be like... a hippie. HAHAHAHHAAHA With peace bandanas and rainbowed pants. Ow, and puffy hair! Disco.
Pffff~
Ok lah. 11.55pm. 5 mins.
So... let me....
post that random vid that i came across today. its really random and essentially nothing. but i think the guys hot. ^^
Youtuber no.1(15 mins ago) God bless you and your admirable ways!
Youtuber no.2 (37 mins ago) You have just a guy voice.
Youtuber no.3 (46mins ago) This fool is all fake.
hahahah, the cheery on top of the cake right the last one? HAHAH
Okay, now go back to the complaining-about-the-fact-that-i-spoilt-a-major-story-AGAIN!
EEE!
EYYY!
EYYYHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
fu-k, fu-k, fu-k, fu-k, FU-K!
Haiya, haiya, stupid girl.
Thats why lahh!
Always go check stuffs on youtube!
Just like all those NewMoon trailers.
Goin to spoil the movie that, i tell you.
I TELL YOU!
SPOIL.
SPOIL.
SPOIL.
eeeeeeeeeeee!
So, wanna know how did i spoil my Private Series story the first time? Well, i bought two books at a time, INVITATION(2nd) and UNTOUCHABLE(3rd), and so, when signing them, i majal majal go flip to the first page of the Untouchable, third book, (and, may i remind you, i havent even read the 2nd one, only the first at that time) ..
and i glanced at one word.
GLANCE at one WORD.
then i looked up from the book, wtf.
and kept weeping and rolling on my bed.
ranting to myself about...
(you've got it!)
about how i FUCKING SPOILT the FUCKING STORY!
ok, thats, very, fucking, may i just add.
):
*frowns*
Ok, ok. Ill go now.. and continue my ranting, just not here, maybe... in the toilet, as i go to pee.
i think she finished it already, cause she doesnt really like suspends. LOL,
& the eleventh.
"Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase, Hakuna Matata! aint no passing craze, It means no worries for the rest of your days, it's our problem-free philosophy!"
