recalling things i never even forgotten.
" I MISS YOU, FRIEND"i really do.im sorry if it seems like i didnt really make an effort,
or show that i still wanted to be your friend that time,
its a personal problem i have,
but i always thought you knew me better than anyone else,
but you let our friendship fall behind,
like waves depositioning sand and other junk on the seashore,
while it continues on, on its own,
but will soon find replacements for its company,
cause no one could ever resist the beauty of the ocean.
but im not blaming you, friend,
i cant expect you, to fight alone for the sake of our friendship,
and beside, you did.
you asked me to hold on,
to continue being as close as we were,
hold on tighter, and tighter,
but i couldnt.
know why?
cause, i was waiting for you to really push me,
just to push me off the cliff,
not to slowly talk me through each step,
"one step at a time; one, two, three..."
i was so stupid.i was so stubborn.did you not know that?i wished you'd just push me off it.push, hard.cause,
if i could go back in time,
i would have drag my own ass of that chair and join you,
but, then again,
i think i still probably won't.
do you understand?cause i don't.
i don't understand how can i expect someone being able to move me,
while i couldnt even move myself.
i don't understand how can i not just stick to you like glue,
so then we'll probably still be like that til now,
i don't understand how could i have thrown a precious, rare gem, like you,
into that retched blue engulfing, ocean.
i don't understand,not you,mostly me.i regret it everyday.
so honestly,i don't think you forgot,i think you didn't care.but im not blaming you, friend.Those who are idiots,
usually brought on that idiocy
by theirselves.
but i do miss you.
last year, i wished for a friend & happiness,
simple as that.
not a lover or whatever,
just a friend,
and with that,
i believe happiness will just tag along on our tails.
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Thursday, September 17, 2009,10:26 PM |
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