*bitterness*


see? i told you im never really happy... im all bitchy and depressed again these days. and fuck it. im not gonna talk about it. ill just promise myself to work on it.. but, i dont care. rightnow, i really, dont wannas think about it.


Today sucked, majorly. Sucked, sucked, sucked, and fucked, up. Yes. -__-


Its 12.34am. Tomoro no school, which doesnt even matter to me now; im too numb to feel good. But im sad that my father will be goin offshore again tomoro. and itll be just me and my mum at home, again... sighs, i prefer my dad these days. Other than that, ill also need a knee to slap. Haha. Just, my hands were itching to hurt something, but, i couldnt, not really. so i just kept slapping his knee... and later on i made him keep on like, bumping hes knee to mine continuously... haha, dont even ask me why... im just weird. i guess i like the beats/tempo/and light taps blablabla... one (bump), two (bump), three (bump)... my eyes fell shut and i was also, thiss close to seeing how it'd feel like to fall right onto my back.


Lol. thats cause i was sitting on the stool, and with my legs crossed on top, so, lean back, and boom! haahaha, but i didnt, not in the mood fo an aching back, since i did just hav one last week.


Yeahh, yeahh, ill miss him. Especially since my malay orals tomoro at 1.15pm too... *rubs face* i feel like dying... and peeing... ha! i need toilet, but, too lazy... hm. Aargh, who cares. Im on strike anyways; skipped lunch, slept, slept slept, ate nachos at 5pm bath at 7pm, ate dinner at 8pm, warcraft 8.30pm to 12;15am. and.. till now 12.45am, blog this crap.


I had a _____ day... fill that in with whatever adjective you want....




the only thing thats making me feel a teeny weeny bit better is

Cobra Starship's Good Girls Go Bad, feat. Leighton Meester.


Finally decided to downloaded it yesterday... Leighton kinda has a... emm, weirdish, a bit, kinda voice... but it works. I was shock to find out she sang when my sister told me last month... haha, see... it takes me a month to download my so called "new" batches of songs. aahha.. but, i love it (:


Kept playing in my head yesterday.


And so, yeah, my only piece of pleasure. A three min song. Hmm, prefect club song. ha.


Well, better go. its turning 1am. and, i wanna see my dad go tomoro morning, but, not much hope in that, itll be early, duhh.


Anyways, one more dose of my bedtime song.

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