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i feel,
stupidly
numb again...
you know, i should really stop goin on about that..im starting to annoying myself... but honestly, i dont even know why im online now...
its 9.56.pm.and ive got a malay homework to attend to...and yes, theres school tomorrow, on a * friday. but at least it starts at 8.20. (: how much i wish all school days start at 8.20... anways, ill just do the homework later bfore sleeping... im not that tired anyways... i slept justnow, like from 4 or 3 pm till 7 pm... thats when my dad woke me, tellin me they were goin fo badminton again... and he was like, "You sleep aah??" ... then i shower... and.. i only ate dinner at around 8.45pm....
you know.. ive been eating dinner quite late these days... i mean... these months.. like.. past three months.... surprised i aint really gaining weight... i havent even been goin outside... which is always making me feel guilty. but i cant seem to get my ass out.... im still unhappy, honestly... but i have to stop this.... i really feel guilty... its been like at least, mayb 2 weeks since ive been out....
im really sorry fo my spot, sammy, teddy, bb, & harvey.
(my baby pets)
i feel suckish.
so, so suckish.
Especially fo harvey... ever since the incident... i havent even went to see them...... and i feel really bad, really. ): I honestly dont know what to do about him .... that was the second time...... it doesnt hurt me so much physically, as it does emotionally.... and it sucks that my sister never is willin to help me when it comes it him. Like, *.
Whatever, ill do it myself one way or another, sooner or later.
ps. i never mentioned abt that, and i dont think i will. so, sorry you all are blank.
Anyways, lets go to todays post... i guess today was alright.. not much reminders, except maths..... other than that... everything else was alright, i guess. But, i have a stabbing feeling, that tomorow, will suck. I dont know why... its not like tomorows subjects always need the blackboard... or whatever... but, i have a feeling... one why or another, itll suck.
sighs. im unprepared... i know ill be pissed. (advance apoligies to school friends, who, ive been not caring about, ha!)... thats why ive been sleeping a lot... ; i rather not think. its my escape from reality, really.
Since, i never dream these days. So, its like im dead anyways.
tonight shall be another night of wrestling.
Labels: dead and so not gone.
Thursday, July 16, 2009,9:53 PM |
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